Caught in the Middle

I feel like I have no place to rest my head and I'm wondering if this is a common feeling or if it's reserved for a select few. I feel as though I don't belong anywhere and I think that is part of the reason I get so lonely all the time. It doesn't matter if I'm with my best friend or a group of people. I always feel alone. Yet I prefer being physically alone. I'm not sure if it's out of habit or because I don't have to pretend to be present when I'm always inside my head. I don't feel at home here at school or in the house I grew up in, with my family or with anyone else's, being christian or someone who thinks gay people are more than their label or someone who is pro-choice or thinks that common sense should be used more often than the old testament to create rules. Just when I make friends, I realize that I will still be alone. I don't like partying, drinking or smoking or being around it so middle school, high school, and now have all been pretty lonely in that regard. I just feel like whenever I find a place I think I can rest my head, someone rips the pillow from beneath me. It's lonely being in the middle. Everyone's for you and everyone's against you. Sometimes I feel like even God is...or even myself.